This whole day has been so foggy and weird. Mainly because I woke up and felt lost, foggy, out of it. As much as anyone would want to accept that nothing is going their way, it’s always hard in the inside to accept that nothing is going your way. Trying to put on a brave and happy face because that’s the only survival we know… how dare we let others see that we are being weak, feeling weak. 

That’s how I feel… Today I felt so off because lately it’s been one thing after the other. I mean, it is what it is and I obviously can’t control that… but it’s gotten to the point where it’s getting to me and I just want to lock myself in a room for a day and just be alone. Make my environment peaceful and happy, and finally see that although things are shit now, it won’t always be. And finally see that things will go my way soon enough; I just can’t give up right now… after all, why would I have stayed in it this long only to give up? 

And it’s thundering like a motherfucker in NYC right now, ain’t that a bitch?